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Something from seven years ago …

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Living on blood thinners has meant getting comfortable with bruising. Contact causes bruising, and life is a contact sport. That is all true, and I need to avoid activities that will leave me one big bruise.

And yet, a year after the diagnosis and first procedure, and a year that included two additional surgeries that involved poking around my heart, I am oddly at ease. The doctors have addressed what they can address, I am taking my medicines and I’ve reached some clarity on what it is that I need to be vigilant for as I live my life as someone with heart issues. I will bruise.

That, thankfully, has given me space to not be ever-anxious. I am feeling more relaxed about the illness and less afraid that I am going to do something or be some way that is going to cause a big problem. That ease has allowed me to re-engage life and to start pushing.